Love is the REVOLUTION

We men are a funny lot. We have not learned how to speak in terms of our emotions. If the emotions are joking, anger, boisterousness, and excited. We can gather to watch the fight or the game and get as loud and obnoxious as we wish and it is acceptable. What happens when we express love? Shit gets uncomfortable. Most men will not go for it or accept it. It's a good way to be called a fag if you express love, compassion or empathy. These are looked at as weak and even feminine.
If you're an activist of some kind you can express love but it has to be presented in a tough manner which is actually the opposite of love. Love is gentle, compassionate and sympathetic. Love identifies with another person in an empathetic way. Not sympathy which is just a cursory identification of the issue but empathy is expressing that you know the feeling and can relate.
Love and all of its divine expressions are revolutionary. In today's highly divided society that is based in fear, love is the only antidote to fear. Faith takes the place of doubt. Love takes the place of fear.

Mood right now. Hurting

"When We're Dancing Close And Slow"

When we're dancing close and slow
I never want to let you go, no, no
I feel your warm embrace
The softness of your face
Tell me, baby, are we here alone?
When we're kissing long and hard
I can almost taste the thoughts within your mind
Sex-related fantasy is all that my mind can see
Baby, that's honestly the way I feel

When we're dancing close and slow
I'm not afraid to let my feelings show
I want to come inside of you
I want to hold you when we're through
Can't you feel my love touching you?

Depression is:

DEPRESSION IS:

I sat on the bench watching the waves. My doctor said this vacation I should spend near water so Lake Michigan here I come.

When you have depression nothing matters. You can’t bring you self to take a shower some days let alone interact with people. I hate people. They will let you down, they will turn on you, they will forget about you, they will treat you as an afterthought, they will lie and they will leave.

It’s kinda cold out so hardly anyone is on the beach or here on the pier. I am wearing a light zip up sweatshirt from EMU and as I look around I am under dressed but I don’t get hot like other people.

I flip my phone over and over in my hand and stop to look at her messenger response. It’s non-committal in it’s entirety and that makes me mad as in insane.

I sit and notice that it is kinda cold out here on the lake in late September. Wind is blowing my hair every which a way and I didn’t bring a hair tie of course. To the other people I must look crazy just sitting here and not moving, reading, drawing or anything.

I can do all those things but depression can and will rob you of the want to do anything.

I’m often asked if I am suicidal and the answer is no, I don’t want to kill myself I just don't want to be here anymore. Wonder if normal people feel that way? I compare being depressed as to having a broken heart and not knowing why. Everything looses it’s appeal. I watch television but it is just background. I sleep my days away as if I accumulate enough days asleep when I wake it will be a better day. The dreams I have of dying make me smile when I wake up.

Not good.

Stomach is angry because of the anxiety disorder and that makes me mad. I hate panic attacks. I pace and sweat and sometimes cry, only if asked a question or if I have to reply, I shake and my thoughts race. Sometimes they last an hour and I can throw anything at them and nothing will knock me out to make them stop.

I’m getting old and I don’t want too. I don’t want to be seventy and on my own, I don’t want to live in a care home where I will just do more of what I do on a daily basis. Watch TV and wait for a meal. I eat once a day and that is plenty.

The thing that pisses me off the most about having depression is the constant exhaustion. I’m just so fucking tired I can’t believe it. I suffer. I really do and I can’t talk about it because someone always has the bright fucking idea to “snap out of it”, “Pray more”, “Change you r thoughts”, “Meditate” or any number of stupid shit . People can be so unaware of a situation.

This woman once said to me, “Life is a buffet! Take what you want and if it’s not good, come back and get something else.” If life is a fucking buffet I’m on a hunger strike. I’m going hungry and have been.

Depression is suicidal thoughts running thru your head that you will never act on until it’s time to act. I saw a motivational video of a man who survived a jump from the golden gate bridge and to be honest I was not inspired at all.

Depression is not giving a fuck at all and knowing it is all a fruitless endeavor. All of it.

Hell is empty because the devils vote republican

Hell is empty and all the devils are here

I have a friend, God bless his little heart, he is a major component of compassion and peace. He works with gangs and homeless and the non-spoken members of society. He doesn’t believe in evil people. He thinks people are misguided. He thinks that they make choices based in either fear or love.

It’s a simple, New Age philosophy made to explain complex humans. It of course doesn’t take into consideration the complexity of human emotions, social life, economic circumstances and just plain old thought processes.

I believe in evil. I have seen it, participated in it and had it thrust on me. I’m not under the impression that a devil is like the biblical devil. Red with horns and a pitchfork or like that chick on the exorcist.

Republicans are the devil. Not collectively but individual devils. They are bad for America in each and every single way. Economically they are greedy selfish petulant children They are racist, they are cold hear-ted and cruel. They are sick and twisted sexually, they are demented socially and are an overall parasitic cancer on people of color.

They experienced such psychological difficulty when Obama was elected, such fear that Brown folks were going to take away all of the privileges that Whites are afforded that in desperation they elected a White Supremacist who hates Brown and poor people to such a degree that he can’t even fake his contempt like Democrats do.

Separating children from their parents at the border is just the American way. George Washington did it, separating Native children from their parents and putting them in boarding schools, Japanese Interment Camps, Chinese Exclusion Laws, forced sterilization, abortions directed and aimed at women at color and hidden under the guise as “family planning”. That’s another thing devils are good at. Word play. Reagan used to talk about “States Rights” which is southern code for “Segregation Policies”.Republicans embraced this type of speech and parroted whatever was said. Lee Atwater was the devil who made up this “Southern Strategy” and once he discovered he was dying he repented and found God. A bit to casually and coincidental for my blood.

People are fleeing worn torn countries seeking asylum here in the United States. Problematic is that the US. Is the one causing and is the main reason for the unrest in Central and South America. When the people show up here what is the result? Separating the children from their parents which every pediatrician the world over says will cause a life time of trauma but what do Republicans and Trumpets say? They say “Fuck ‘em they are illegals”

Something is wrong with them spiritually. Something is missing, there is a piece of them that is gone from their spirit. They are not posessed in the classic sense of posession like some weird foreign entity has taken over them, no. They are evil not to the bone but to their very spirit they are evil, wicked bastards. Bastards in terms of their father is the God damned devil and no one else. If you are a Republican fuck you to the bone. Die in a fire you piece of shit.

Barr goes to far

 Roseanne Barr is not funny. 

Roseanne tweeted that Valarie Jarrett, a Obama staffer, 

was “Muslim Brotherhood and Planet of the Apes = VJ”  The next day her rebooted show on ABC

was shit canned. 

The president of ABC is a Black woman like Valarie Jarrett, which is to say 

she is more educated and classy than every single Republican and or Trump voter combined.
I’ve never thought she was funny. Her show the first time around wasn’t funny, her 

stand up wasn’t funny, her exploits weren’t funny, pretty much everything she did was not 

funny. Here’s the thing about Roseanne, she was born and raised in Utah as a Jew, which had 

to be insane, and she was poor. Two strikes out the door but she is White so she had that to 

fall back on which doesn’t engender much sympathy from me.
The picture above was her attempt at humor. She claims the cookies are not 

Jews but Palestanians. How that makes it better is beyond my thinking. 
Roseanne is a feckless, feeble minded, trailer park trash, bottom feeding Trump supporter. 

That’s really what she is. She’s typical of a Trump supporter. They had such psychological 

difficulty with a Black man, even though they would constantly point out he had a White mama,

 being in a position of power in this nation. Personal opinion of why they fixated on his 

mother is because being a cuck to an actual African is secretly one of many right wingers 

fantasy. I have no proof of that it’s just my opinion. Here is what is not my 

opinion: America has had a race problem since Columbus invaded the Arawak people. 

It’s not gotten better, just because you can fuck them doesn’t make it better, it’s gotten

 worse. The Tea Party, the Republicans, the evangelicals, the conservatives and all, 

EVERY SINGLE ONE, of the right wing are just bigots. The proof is that if there are not then 

why when shit like this or when Trump talks about “Mexicans coming here dealing drugs” 

and killing and taking jobs, or when he ignore Puerto Rico or when his supporters want 

to “Make America White Again” why is there no outrage? Where are the right wing nuts speaking 

out?
It caused great psychological difficulty when Obama was elected to White men which in turn 

made White women fearful which in turn made the rise of the right, the racists, a reality and in turn is destroying our nation. Roseanne, like any Kardashian, like any KKK member, like any Republican is a cancer in our society and I just have a hard time believeing there are more of them than there are of real people who don’t buy the ticket that the bigots sell.
Of course I could be wrong I just doubt it.

White terrorism is the rule and not the exception

Jizzmonkey Trump is notorious for connecting acts of violence to race and faith, often blaming Muslims and people of color whenever tragedy plays out across the world. That default response, however, tripped up both the president and other elected officials this week, after a 64-year-old white male U.S. citizen allegedly opened fire on a crowded concert in Las Vegas, Nevada late Sunday evening, killing at least 59 people injuring more than 500.

The incident horrified much of the country and left the people of Las Vegas grieving and searching for answers. Much of the coverage following the tragedy centered on the identity of the alleged attacker, Stephen Paddock, with many commentators remarking on his supposedly unique profile: a quiet, lone white man whose family and friends were shocked by his actions. Paddock, they claimed, simply didn’t fit the profile of an alleged mass murderer.

In reality, what happened in Las Vegas is actually the norm in the United States — white men are disproportionately responsible for mass shootings and wide-scale acts of violence.

According to Mother Jones, approximately 54 percent of mass-shootings since 1982 have been carried out by white men. (Men more generally are responsible for virtually all mass shootings, as well as 90 percent of murders.)  While Paddock’s age is unusual — other shooters are on average several decades younger — his race and other factors fit the profile to a T.

Little is currently known about Paddock’s motive, but other white male mass shooters have shared various underlying characteristics, one of which, Newsweek notes, is a sense of entitlement — many have lost jobs, failed to complete school, faced rejection by partners, or seen other elements of their lives spiral out of control. That resulting feeling of failure (along with the assumption that such failure is undeserved and the fault of others) has been reported as a motivating factor in brutal rampages like the massacre that played out in Las Vegas.

A 2013 study at the University of Washington noted:

Among many mass killers, the triple privileges of white heterosexual masculinity which make subsequent life course losses more unexpected and thus more painfully shameful ultimately buckle under the failures of downward mobility and result in a final cumulative act of violence to stave off subordinated masculinity.

Political rhetoric and public perceptions, however, do not accurately reflect this reality. If anything, more attention has been paid to all the wrong parties: Trump’s travel ban, for instance, which initially targeted refugees and seven Muslim-majority countries, now centers on an even larger, extended group of nations — most of which are still majority-Muslim.

Safety has been key among the justifications for the policy. “We will never forget the lessons of 9/11,” Trump said in January, speaking about the ban. “This is not about religion. This is about terror and keeping our country safe.”

The president did not cite any specific statistics to support his claim.

Over the past three years, the president has repeatedly linked Islam and violence, oftentimes without any confirmation. In December, Trump blamed “Islamic terrorists” for attacks in Germany and Turkey before information became widely known; months later, in September, a London subway bombing prompted the president to push his travel ban after labeling the individual responsible a “loser terrorist.”

“Another attack in London by a loser terrorist. These are sick and demented people who were in the sights of Scotland Yard. Must be proactive!” Trump tweeted. “The travel ban into the United States should be far larger, tougher and more specific-but stupidly, that would not be politically correct!”

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That pattern offered a study in contrasts on Monday, when Trump extended his condolences to the Las Vegas shooting victims. “My warmest condolences and sympathies to the victims and families of the terrible Las Vegas shooting,” he tweeted. “God bless you!”

The president did not speculate about the alleged shooter’s race or religious motivations.

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Trump isn’t alone is his willingness to ignore the white male suspect pattern. According to a study published in March, media outlets traditionally under-cover attacks by non-Muslims. When Muslims are responsible for violence, however, coverage increases by 449 percent.

“When attacks are perpetrated by a Muslim, they receive drastically more coverage,” Erin Kearns, the lead author of the study, said in June. Kearns told ThinkProgress that the discrepancy is actually warping how U.S. audiences perceive those who commit mass-atrocities.

“Across every model that we looked at, we’re still finding that Muslim perpetrators have at least 200 percent increase in coverage,” she said at the time.

Language is also key in how coverage unfolds. While Muslim perpetrators of color are virtually always labeled “terrorists,” white male attackers are typically referred to as “lone wolves” — or, men experiencing isolated cases of rage unrelated to their wider identities. That means that many particularly violent instances — including Dylann Roof’s June 2015 murder of nine parishioners at a historically black church in Charleston, South Carolina; Wade Michael Page’s August 2012 slaughter of six people at a Sikh temple in Oak Creek, Wisconsin; and Paddock’s deadly rampage in Las Vegas — have largely been viewed as stand-alone tragedies rather than indicative of a larger problem.

“These are not terrorists. You know what a terrorist is,” humorist Alexandra Petri wrote in a satirical piece following the Las Vegas massacre. “A Terrorist must be Something Else, or the people who apply labels to such things would have to look in the mirror every day and see a potential terrorist. They would have to admit that what they are afraid of is not the same as terrorism. They would have to admit that the horrible violence that happened in Las Vegas is not an aberration. And then — No. The shooter was alone. He was a fluke. He was a wolf.”

Humor aside, Petri’s column highlights the bigger issue: between 2011 and 2015, 89 attacks were committed by individuals in the United States, according to Kearns’ study. Only 12.4 percent of those attacks were carried out by Muslims.

By contrast, white men — regardless of faith — have carried out more than half of all mass shootings in the United States over the past few decades. And while masculinity is an overwhelming factor in incidents of violence more generally, whiteness is one that has gone particularly unacknowledged.

“There’s a feeling of entitlement that white men have that black men don’t,” Northeastern University professor James Alan Fox told the Washington Post in 2012. “They often complain that their job was taken by blacks or Mexicans or Jews. They feel that a well-paid job is their birthright. It’s a blow to their psyche when they lose that.”

In addition to being a largely white male phenomenon, mass shootings are also a largely American one. According to FiveThirtyEight, between 1966 and 2012, there have been 90 mass shootings in the United States — more than the next four countries combined.

Mass violence is always a tragedy, regardless of perpetrator. But without acknowledging the real root of the problem and the underlying patterns that so often go ignored, it’s more than likely those devastating trends will continue unabated.

Full Disclosure Part ONE

     What good is a blog and a last name of Trusty if I cannot be totally honest? I suffer from Major depressive disorder, Anxiety disorder and Agoraphobia. I have the Agoraphobia because of the Major Depression. I go thru phases where I have no energy and do not want to leave the house. The anxiety kicks in and leaving the house and being around people just seems to be such a heavy endeavor that I cannot just put myself thru. Unlike some agoraphobics there are a couple of differences I have going on with me. One, I know what a phobia is. I understand it as more than it's mere definition which according to Webster's is:

Noun
noun: phobia; plural noun: phobias
an extreme or irrational fear of or aversion to something.
"he had a phobia about being under water"
synonyms: fear, irrational fear, obsessive fear, dread, horror, terror, hatred, loathing, detestation, aversion, antipathy, revulsion; complex, neurosis; informalthing, hang-up
"fear of spiders is just one of his many phobias"

    I put in bold the one's that I relate to the best. Irrational fear. I, unlike the majority of agoraphobics, have a fear that I will have to hurt someone and will end up in jail or being sued because I fucked someone up physically. I get anxious that someone will say and or do something to someone I love or even me and I will have to hurt them or maybe, worst case, kill them. I can think about it and actually get melancholy about having to hire a lawyer, pay bail, get processed and all of it.
   
     The actual being outdoors does not bother me. People bother me. When I see those videos of racists going off and yelling about Trump and berating Latino's for having the audacity to exist in this nation it all at once infuriates me and then it throws me into a panic. I know it is irrational but for some reason I am the one that most assholes want to test. I am perceived as being an alpha and in order to get my illusion spot I must be taken down. I worked at Girl Scouts with this bitch named Priscilla and she used me as a scapegoat and would often berate and emasculate me as often as she could. She didn't like men and I am 100% male. I don't have a feminine bone in my body, I think like a man and act that way and she couldn't stand it. I kick myself in the ass because I let, I allowed, my depression to get so out of control that it affected my work, my work rate, the way I perceived my job and everything and I handed this bitch the excuse to fire me on a silver platter. It was not until I was fired that I sought out help and ended up in therapy where I was officially diagnosed. I have paperwork that proves I am crazy so that should relieve all doubt.

     Depression to me is like dying very slowly. I am clinically depressed. Right now. I really am and it is all encompassing. I'm not sad. Sad would be a fucking improvement. I have the real deal where it just takes over. I have also found that depression is so misunderstood as to be a farce of itself. Feeling sad is something that you know will eventually go away and you will bounce back. But what if you don’t bounce back? What if your feelings of sadness linger, are excessive, or interfere with your work, sleep, or recreation? What if you’re feeling fatigue or worthlessness, or experiencing weight changes along with your sadness? That is major depression.

     Also known as clinical depression, major depressive disorder, or unipolar depression, major depression is a medical condition that goes beyond life’s ordinary ups and downs. Almost 18.8 million American adults experience depression each year, and women are nearly twice as likely as men to develop major depression. People with depression cannot simply “pull themselves together” and get better. Treatment with counseling, medication, or both is key to recovery. I am trying and God knows I feel like surrendering and giving up but I have made a promise to my wife and my kola to not do anything stupid.

     Here are the signs:

• Depressed mood, sadness, or an “empty” feeling, or appearing sad or tearful to others
• Loss of interest or pleasure in activities you once enjoyed
• Significant weight loss when not dieting, or significant weight gain (for example, more than 5% of body weight in a month)
• Inability to sleep or excessive sleeping
• Restlessness or irritation (irritable mood may be a symptom in children or adolescents too), or feelings of “dragging”
• Fatigue or loss of energy
• Feelings of worthlessness, or excessive or inappropriate guilt
• Difficulty thinking or concentrating, or indecisiveness
• Recurrent thoughts of death or suicide without a specific plan, or a suicide attempt or specific plan for committing suicide

     

Adventures in douchebaggery (Story #1)

     The Chinese Buffet Incident

     Full disclosure. I am not a Christian. I am not baptized, I am not a fan of any of the sons of Abraham and I am on the fence as to wether or not Jesus even existed. I know all about how the "disciples" did not write any of the books of the bible and they were written over 30 years after Jesus 'death' and yadda yadda bing. ALL that stuff. I write that because it is important to the story I am going to tell.

     My wife had gone away for work and was going to be gone for a week. I can cook, I can cook better than my wife, this is something she will tell you, and I do cook unless I feel like being lazy. There is a new Chinese buffet in Jackson and it has a hibachi grill which for Jackson is something new. Being a fan of Mongolian BBQ I was excited to go to this place and see what was up. 

     I walked in and it was a nice looking place, but then again it was also new. Typical Red, Black and Gold gaudy ass decorations. There are the fat Buddha's and Chinese lettering all over the walls. Big tables in the middle and booths on both sides of the wall. The place is busy but not overly busy. First thing that happened was the millennial who sat me down asked if I qualified for the senior citizen discount. I was stunned! I looked at her and told her while I was old enough to be her father I was not that fucking old and to go get my waitress. Her mouth dropped open and she scampered away to soon be replaced by a young Chinese woman with a very thick accent that I am not sure was even real. I felt like she was faking it. I have no proof but I was not convinced that she had that thick of an accent. She explained how to use the hibachi, same as Mongolian BBQ, and that drinks had free refills.

     At the front table, which was next to me in the booth, sat a man, a woman and 9 kids, NINE kids. I had a feeling that they were maybe adopted or foster because two were Black, one was Latino and the rest were White like the parents. There were three red headed stepchildren and a couple of blondes. They were not rowdy except for this one White boy who was wearing a Mario Bros t-shirt which made me think that his mother wasn't even born when that game came out which then made me think 

     Did you know Purple Rain was released 33 years ago? Feel old yet? Maybe I do qualify for that discount.

     Mario shirt was a rowdy lil fuck. He kept antagonizing this dark haired girl who sat across from him. He calling her fat, he called her ugly and said that she smelled like a salad bar. I thought that was actually funny but it wasn't funny to say to a girl. Mario Shirt kept turning his head after each insult to see if someone was watching and when he wasn't doing that he was mocking the father behind his back mimicking him talking until he got caught by the mother and told to "settle down". He was constantly talking and moving around like a puppy with worms. The Father Figure (F.F.)   clinked his glass and told everyone to "be still, bow your heads and I will lead you all in prayer" Eight kids did as told and Mario shirt mockingly put his hands together and looked up at the ceiling and then bowed his head. The father took notice and said, "settle down" and then he closed his eyes and bowed his head. 

     Now, just because I am not a fan of Hebrew fairy tales does not mean I do not respect those who do. I am a man who does pray and so when other people pray I respect that. While the father was praying and just as he got to the part where he was thanking God for allowing the family to come to a restaurant to eat when Mario Shirt loudly yells "OWIEEEEE" which is a fake "ouch" by the way he said it with a shit eating grin sliced across his face. F.F. stopped, opened his eye's and turned his head towards Mario Shirt. "Are you serious right now?" he asked incredulous with shock. Mario Shirt pointed to his nose and said something about bumping it earlier or some weak shit. I made a "humph" noise and shook my head. F.F. looked my way and said, "Sorry sir, Todd (or James, or Mike or some equally obnoxiously common name) forgets himself."

     Let me digress for a second here. I like kids. Most. A Lor No, that's not right either, I like some kids.  I know a few kids that I can tolerate pretty well. (I gotta stay honest). Kids are not like they were when I was growing up. Kids now just couldn't give a fuk. They don't respect shit. They go to people's weddings and funerals dressed in tank tops and jean shorts. They have no idea of history or current events. They are fed a constant diet of "Everyone is the same! There are no winners or losers! Here! Take this PARTICIPATION TROPHY and know in your heart that you can be and do anything!" Having been on the Earth for over 47 years (Birthday is October 26th) I can tell you that the above is capricious bullshit! Those are just a few reasons I can't stand these shitty kids and equally shitty parents, so when I have my chance to be a douche-bag and maybe get a kid in trouble I say fuck it and go for it. I admit it is some douche-bag behavior on my part but check the title of this blog. I am aware. You could say I am "woke"..........

     I turned to F.F. and put my napkin to my mouth, closed my eyes and shook my head. I let out a long slow breath and looked as woefully as I could at F.F. and said with my voice all at once, hushed and cracking, "I'm sorry sir" I started thinking how full of shit I am sometimes and continued, "It's just when I think of how I have been washed in the blood of Jesus and forgiven for all of my satanic sins and lewd behavior and has given me peace and for someone to interrupt another person addressing the messiah and lord and savior of so many in a disrespectful manner it doesn't make me angry like I used to get at everything, no I have been relieved of that, it makes me sad to think that anyone who is obviously raised in the way of the lord to be just.....just......maybe...." Then I turned my head. F.F. apologized and then informed Mario shirt that he cannot have desert tonight and for the next three nights. 

     I smiled and felt a enormous sense of satisfaction that the little shit Mario Shirt would be going without desert as the daughter could eat cake right in front of his A.D.D. ass as he watches in jealously.

     Fuck these spoiled shits. 

     

     

No Christians I know

   



     I was asked yesterday on a chat if I liked Christians. I guess I was coming off pretty harsh, he later asked me if I was an atheist. I explained that I do not have enough data to know if I like Christians because I have met so few of them in my life. My mother raised us in a cult that was heavy bible thumpers, they can quote scripture like they have a black belt. So, I know a lot about Jesus. I study on my own and what I think of him or believe about him is for another blog. It would just be a distraction here.
     I am dead serious about not knowing very many Christians like I know very few Muslims. Sure I know people who claim to be Christian but they are not Christian at all. Donnie Trump says he is a Christian and he has plenty of right wing, conservative liars that call themselves "leaders" and Reverend who swear that they are Christian and so is Trump. You can say you are a thing but that doesn't mean you are that thing. I can stand in a garage and say I am a Chevy Equinox but that doesn't make it true. If you are a Christian then you are expected to ACT Christ like. Act in the way, which was loving and firm in his stance, that Christ acted. Compassion is the one word that I think of when I think about Jesus. Trump is no Jesus. Jesus tells Christians to welcome the stranger. With Donnie turning away some 800,000 Dreamers he is directly ignoring this directive from his messiah. Donnie absolutely hates Brown people. He started his campaign on the 'threats' that immigrants, Mexicans in particular, posed to Americans. Turn on Fox and every religious leader on there that is backing Trump talks about what a good Christian he is. He and every conservative/republican do not have compassion, they care about their true God. Money. Joel Osteen made that perfectly clear.
     If you can't act lovingly to strangers then you are no Christian. If you live by fear and not faith you are not a Christian. Jesus never said "I love you" in the bible but he did so by his actions because actions do speak louder than words and for those on the right it is obvious on hoe you treat the earth, how you treat children, immigrants, women and each other. My belief system is free of dogma and is focused on justice and love with love being the most powerful force in the entire universe. That might be dogma and if it is then that's the dogma I have.
     These dreamers are Americans, they cannot be deported to a land that is not theirs. This land is theirs. If you can trace you family lineage and the majority of that lineage is not on Turtle Island then you are a immigrant and Donnie and his whole entire Luciferian family are immigrants.
      If you claim to be a Christian I suggest you read anything by Jim Wallis. Put that shit from Joel Osteen and all the other frauds that preach prosperity spirituality. THAT is the kind of crap that makes for a fake Christian. If you want to help contact your congressman and senator about passing the DREAM act.


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Complicity and bigotry are not an option!

Trump supporter, you suck

     Trump's response to the devatstation in Texas is as shallow as Bush's response to the devastation left by Katrina. It's a non-response really. FEMA is a joke, it is underfunded because it does not produce money, not like the Iraq war does. 
     I don't like that schools teach Creationism according to the sons of Abraham in public schools paid for by tax dollars while veterans of the Iraq and Afghanistan war are killing themselves at a rate that surpasses any other veteran of a war.
     I lump you, Trump voter/supporter, with the KKK, Neo-Nazi's, Fascists, skinheads, White supremacists and good old fashioned inbred hillbilly yokels who vote against their best interest because they are too damn lazy to do any research to see if their appointed leaders and Fox news are lying to them. Limbaugh listeners, Hannity lovers and people who think that Bill O'Rielly got a raw deal, all together as what is going to prove to be the downfall of this nation once and for all. 
     I refuse to try to see things your way anymore. I refuse to see if there is common ground among us as you march down the street carrying torches and chanting Nazi slogans. I refuse to listen to anything you have to say about economics while Trump and his family raid the American treasury making him and his ilk more money. 
     You call yourself a Christian yet you support a guy who has the outright support of the KKK and you fool yourself into thinking that there is a 'Alt-Left" that is equal to the "Alt-Right" because you are sick and must say that "both sides" are at fault for the things going on in this nation. 
     You are a racist, a misogynist and a xenophobe and it sickens me to no end. You have no real morals, you're a coward with no heart. You voted Trump because the Black guy did a good job of cleaning up after the last Republican idiot damn near destroyed the nation. As far as being on the spectrum of scumbags who hold ideas that are abhorrent to human freedom and progress you bet your candy ass you are on all of the spectrum's of shitty people. 
     Being polite to people like you doesn't work. I can love you, but I love with determiniation and strength. I don't pretend to love you with a lame effiminaite softness. I love with the strength of my ancestors who allow me to look at what you and your president are doing and speak truth to that power. You might say you want "lower taxes and smaller government" which historically the republicans have NEVER delivered to you, but what you wanted was White men in charge. 53% of White women voted Trump. Why? Security, he spoke tough and they liked it. 
     
I tried to be polite but now I just don't give a damn because let's be honest we don't live in polite America anymore. We live in grab ‘em by the pussy America now. So thank you for that. Being polite was exhausting.

And don’t come at me with how you just didn’t like Hillary. This was bigger than Hillary. The whole free world knows it so don’t pretend like you don’t. This wasn’t your standard, “I want lower taxes and smaller government” Republican. We had Germans warning us that this guy was scary and still people cried emails or Benghazi or “that voice.” And the truth is there’s been mountains of evidence proving that none of this was a big deal; some of the finest minds in the world have drawn you charts and graphs pointing to why no crimes were committed and you were either too dumb or too willfully ignorant to care. And if you really cared about crimes, you might care about any of the 3 pending against your candidate. Take your pick. I’d start with the rape of the 13 year old girl, but again if you voted for Trump, you probably don’t care much what happens to women. Doesn’t matter anyway. She got so many death threats from your “political peers” she dropped the charges anyway. But ask me again why more victims don’t come forward.

And speaking of smaller government and lower taxes, enjoy not getting mine. If Trump actually does what he says, you and your petty backward states and your small angry towns can pay for your own schools to not educate your children. I live in California, the largest economy in the United States and number 6 in the world. We’ll be fine. Have fun affording all those children your health insurance won't pay for your birth control to prevent. I’m just kidding. You won’t have health insurance. Won’t that just be great (again?!)

And while I’m done being polite, if you voted 3rd party, un-friend me. I don’t care how much we enjoy each other on every other level. I don’t care how much you want to make your 3rd party a viable option. Fuck you. You basically told women and the LGBTQ community and people of color to take a back seat to your need to have another option. Well done. Now, we’re not only in the back seat, we’re actually being dragged behind the car. But how’s that third party coming? What are you doing about it today, November 10th, by the way? Are you volunteering for your third party so you can get more of their candidates into state and local elections? Looking into how to help make them viable for the mid-term elections? I look forward to who you present to save us in 2020, if there’s anything left to save.

Also, while I am at it, if you are one of those people telling me this week how Bernie could have defeated Trump, un-friend me. But kudos to you for living in a world where you think being Jewish wouldn’t have mattered to Trump supporters. I wish I could buy property there. Tell me, what are the schools like that far up your own ass?

The truth is that for those of us on this side, there is no “when all this is over,” things are just getting started. We think yesterday was bad? We don’t know what bad is yet. This isn’t something you get over. This is something you endure. We are going to face attacks on every right we fought the last 60 years to gain. The deck is so stacked against us we may not win. The best we can hope for is gridlock. And that’s just nationally. Internationally, who the fuck knows what’s going to happen with this lunatic. And the scarier thought is that the only thing worse than him is the guy that’s one angry tweet away from the Presidency, Mike Pence, advocate for gay conversion therapy and mandatory funerals for fetuses.

So now’s the time you may want to see things from my side. Because if we’re all “going to have to be friends after this” imagine me having to be polite and respect your vote to take away these rights and freedoms of mine and my friends while we fight desperately to hold onto them. Because that is what you did.

And that all says nothing of what you just said about us as women. I haven’t gotten to that yet because I may scream when I do and if I start I may not stop. So let me just say, you told every woman that being sexually harassed does not matter. Being sexually assaulted does not matter. Working hard does not matter. You took the most qualified candidate we’ve had in decades – a woman - belittled her for every single mistake and misstep she’s ever made while you took the most unqualified candidate we’ve ever had – a man – and ignored every mistake he ever made. But you’re not sexist. No let me tell you: Yes. You. Are. And if you’re a woman, Girl, you got issues. And I say that as someone who crawled out of the bitter, self-hating womb of one of these women. I know that most of these women are damaged and that I should find the compassion for them but I am not there yet because I am so sick of damaged people damaging the rest of us.

And isn’t this somewhat an abusive relationship at this point? If you have friends or family like this, cut them off. I'm giving you permission. They didn’t give two shits about your rights or happiness on Tuesday. You don’t have to pretend like it’s all cool and pass them a plate of turkey two weeks from now. It’s like we’re uall abused partners saying to each other, “But you don’t know what he’s like when he’s not racist.” Being racist isn’t the same as liking Dire Straits. It’s not like you just don’t like the same music. Being racist is always racist. And voting for Trump makes you a racist. Protect yourselves, Friends. Because those assholes always do.

Real Warriors Love. (And bring it when necessary)

     When the word warrior is mentioned Americans are prone to think of weaponry, fatigues, explosions and the flag. When warrior is mentioned in the same sentence as a Native American the image that flashes is long hair, bare chested, light mocha colored man on a horse with a bow and arrow.

     Both images are woefully inadequate in reality. Women are warriors, children are warriors, people who have never held a automatic weapon are warriors. The guy who gets up everyday and goes to a job where he busts his kiester for 8 plus hours a day for a low wage and do it day in and day out to provide for his family. A warrior is a water protector who gets blasted in the face with mace by men who are paid with their taxes and turns around and shows up the next day. The warrior is the one who's job it is to feed homeless children and provide a safe place for them in neighborhoods that police do not go to. Warriors do warrior 'ish because they love people and they love because they know that the highest purpose is to serve. 

     We are here to serve, we are not here to be served. 

     This is America, like it or not we are getting more and more Brown and it's not because its summer time. See that young man's face above? He is not a warrior. He is terrified. He is scared that when America goes majority Brown we will treat them like they have treated us. I would tell him that it won't happen because we are not built that way but he wouldn't listen to me because I am Brown. 

     Warriors know that love is the strongest force in the universe. Some believe that is all that God is made of. Warriors know that love of self leads to love of kind and love of kind leads to respect of all life. All life. If it has wings we love it, if it has paws we love it, if it has hooves we love it, if it has skin color unlike our own we love it. Why? Because it is the strongest force in the universe. Now don't get it twisted. I am not a hippie, I am not a pacifist. I'm not Christian and I don't turn my cheek. I stand with The Creator of all natural things and I am positive of the outcome. Love will win. I can get violent but that is such a small part of being a warrior that it is not even in my mind when I go to a protest or make a speech or write a blog. {:)}I carry a message that regardless if you think of me as as much human as you are that love is the strongest force in the universe and it is what motivates a warrior. 

     I do not perpetuate violence and actually know it to be futile but self defense is not violence, self defense is a tool that a warrior uses when all other tools have been tried. When you see me at a protest know that it is because I am compelled by spirit and love to move that way. To confront hate with love is hard. It is very very hard and at 47 years of age I am still learning to do it right. When I saw those men marching with torches and chanting Nazi slogans I was not angry. I was incredibly sad. Sad because I know that talking to them will not change them, they are so afraid and rhetoric filled that listening is a skill they have lost. Meeting them in large numbers with love and compassion will confuse them and hopefully give them that precious second to stop and pause and look around and reconsider their behavior. 

     We outnumber them. Not Brown people "we" I am talking about the WE that knows that the universe is run on numbers and love. The WE that as Americans are attempting to move this nation to live up to it's promises of a nation of equals and justice. Trump and the conservatives are cowards and they are scared and their base, the men and women who carry torches and chant Nazi slogans, are cowards also. Like children they can learn one of two ways. The way of the peaceful warrior or the way of the warrior who has tried their best and is left with not other choice but to protect what they love. 

     I love my family and I love my people and I love my simplistic understanding of The Creator of all natural things. Feel free to be a White nationalist but also be prepared to be met with love, compassion and power. NOT force, but POWER. Next blog I will try to explain the difference.

     By the way, I stole the Real Warriors Love from my kola Tony Goulet author of GOD HELP ME TIE MY SHOES and THE FOUR. I stole it and he can't do a damn thing about it because I'm bigger than him and he lives in Texas.